“For years I silenced the voice in my head, begging me to walk away.
The voice, the constant gnawing,” she wrote in a lengthy Substack post.
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Cobra KaistarCourtney Henggeleris throwing in the towel on acting.
Courtney Henggeler arrives at Netflix’s ‘Cobra Kai’ series finale premiere in February.Credit:Maya Dehlin Spach/WireImage
I called my agents and told them I was tapping out.
She continued, “All Ive ever known in my professional life was acting.
But not even the art or craft of acting.
Courtney Henggeler as Amanda LaRusso in ‘Cobra Kai’.Courtesy of Netflix
All Ive truly ever knew was the hustle.
The hustle, the grind, sprinkled occasionally with the odd acting job.
Perhaps a line or two to TVs Dr. House - ‘Sorry’ (thats it.
That was my line.
Or a recurring guest-star that never seemed to recur….Whatever the opposite of nailing it is.”
On the film side, she also appeared inFriends with Benefits,Nobody’s Fool, andFeed.
“We survived off the crumbs.
We filled our cup with the possibility; our mugs with delusion.
Our plates were empty, but a golden goose hung over our heads.
Courtney Henggeler as Amanda LaRusso in ‘Cobra Kai’.Courtesy of Netflix
Today might be the day.
Today might be the day I reach the golden goose,” she wrote.
“I was on a series.
My face was on the billboards I longed for 20 plus years.
I was directed by George Clooney for godsakes.
This by all definitions is the golden goose,” she shared.
Henggeler continued, “For years I silenced the voice in my head, begging me to walk away.
The voice, the constant gnawing.
Not because of the acting itself.
But because of the gauntlet I had to run to reach the acting.
What once felt necessary, something I willingly participated, even celebrated, became stifling.”
What if we had it all along?
… What if we never needed to trigger the gauntlet?
What if we are the gauntlet?"
A representative for Henggeler did not immediately respond toEntertainment Weekly’s request for additional comment on Monday.
