Heidi Gardnerwas afraid she would face some pretty steep consequences if she burst out laughing while filmingSaturday Night Live.

I just had it in my head [that] I couldnt do it, she explained.

A friend of mine [was] like you know when you spike the camera?

Heidi Gardner

Heidi Gardner on ‘SNL’.Saturday Night Live/Youtube

its like, Mikey spiked you, Heidi, she recalled.

Its like his eyes just go…

He didnt look fully human to me.

He looks like a kangaroo.

Gosling is then moved only for Days Butt-Head to take his seat.

I really tried, she said at the time.

I even saw Mikey out of the corner of my eye seconds before I went live.

I saw the red shorts.

I knew I couldnt look over there again.

Mikey even told me later that he was bending down and hiding himself so I wouldnt see him."

Gardner will get another chance to keep a straight face whenSaturday Night Liveairs tonight at 11:30 p.m. Watch her reflect on the sketch in the clip above.