“I was like, ‘What the hell am I doing here?

“Thing was, I couldnt make it through dress rehearsal.

I stuttered over this one line and couldnt ad-lib my way out of it.”

Kenan Thompson attends the 47th Annual People’s Choice Awards

Kenan Thompson.Amy Sussman/Getty Images

When the season finished, I didnt even think Id be asked back, he writes.

The good news: Thompson was brought back.

“I was like, ‘What the hell am I doing here?

The lack of opportunities led Thompson to wonder if there was space atSNLfor my kind of comedy.

He writes, It was a no-brainer,’ she said.

‘We could tell you were ready and youre adorable.

We all said, Obviously, its Kenan.’

Rudolphs stamp of approval helped Thompson get back on his feet.

“To be complimented by someone you admire was humbling and enlightening, he says.

I wasnt just a kid laughing at his own jokes in front of the mirror.

Id been validated.”

And let me tell you, that never gets old.

Its exciting every single time.”

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