“And the director said, ‘If I were you, I would fight the tears.’

And I said, ‘No, no.

Just let me do it, okay?'”

MASH, Gary Burghoff

Gary Burghoff in ‘MASH’.Everett*

Burghoff got his way, but his big dramatic moment did not turn out as he’d expected.

“The next day, in dailies, I look at the screen and it’s awful.

I mean, it is just terrible,” he recalls.

“The director was right, I was wrong…

I said, ‘kindly can I do this again?’

And he said, ‘Yes, you may.'”

The special premieres New Year’s Day at 8 p.m.

Exclusively watch Burghoff talk about saying goodbye to Radar below.