Tiffany Haddishis opening up about her hidden pain.
I feel like my life gets turned upside down," Haddish told PEOPLE.
“I’m like, ‘Am I dying?'”

Tiffany Haddish.Michael Buckner/Variety via Getty
But the most painful part of the condition has been its effect on pregnancy, she said.
Haddish told PEOPLE that she has had a total of eight miscarriages.
“It’s so f—ing devastating,” she said.

‘I Curse You with Joy’ by Tiffany Haddish.Diversion Books
So far, nothing’s been able to stop the miscarriages.
“The last two months have not been as bad,” she said.
I Curse You With Joyhits stores on May 7.