Tiffany Haddishis opening up about her hidden pain.

I feel like my life gets turned upside down," Haddish told PEOPLE.

“I’m like, ‘Am I dying?'”

Tiffany Haddish at the season 2 premiere of “The Afterparty” held at the Bruin Theater on June 28, 2023 in Los Angeles, California.

Tiffany Haddish.Michael Buckner/Variety via Getty

But the most painful part of the condition has been its effect on pregnancy, she said.

Haddish told PEOPLE that she has had a total of eight miscarriages.

“It’s so f—ing devastating,” she said.

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So far, nothing’s been able to stop the miscarriages.

“The last two months have not been as bad,” she said.

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