It was not easy.

She goes on to enumerate the reasons she found the newBehind the Musicepisode hard to watch.

One, seeing Wolfies pain.

Eddie Van Halen and Valerie Bertinelli during 1994

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Two, seeing what a better job I could have done as a parent.

Even though he turned out magnificently, I made a lot of mistakes, she said.

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As Bertinelli recounts, she first met Van Halen when she was 20 years old.

They stayed married for 20 years before getting divorced in 2007.

Van Halendied of cancer in 2020 at age 65.

Wolfgang played in his namesake band until his father’s death caused the group to disband.

What we had together was this beautiful son that we both unconditionally loved.

Thats what I got out of that marriage: Wolfie, the best thing that ever happened to me.

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